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Because of certain people that have something against me, there's a lot of stuff about me and what they claim I did, online, along with tampered screenshots. This is libel (and in some instances slander).

I leave it up to you to talk to me and judge for yourself what type of person I am. Not taking fake evidence by the whining lies of a hater.

Grandma...

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R.I.P Grandma...

Memorial Video Added:
It was never supposed to be a funeral video... Just a gift for her of her favorite song in a timeline of her life...
I wanted her to see it, but she died before I made it... So...
It became her funeral video...

www.youtube.com/watch?v=1V6ZZ1…

For a month and a few weeks now, My grandmother Mary Josephine (Jo) Richards has been battling death... We really don't know what took her. I wrack my brain around it constantly trying to figure out the puzzle. Beyond everything she had, there was nothing active that the doctors could find that was killing her. I fully believe it was systematic Candida, based on a comment she told me and the way she went, and how everything just went like a snap of a finger in a month from being so strong after her heart attack, to deteriorating a little bit every day... no matter what medical, alternative, or archaic methods we tried to help her come back... Till the end to where she finally went, right after my Aunt Donna Haugen read her scriptures and prayed that Jehovah end her suffering, when she took her last breath just as "in Jesus Christ our saviors name we pray, amen" was said... If that isn't a sign of faith and that God is listening, I don't know what is...

But the details of what killed her and such aren't that important.

What's important is to get out there, just what kind of person she was. Who she was to me, my family, and everyone around.

I can't tell you her entire life, I now sit here wishing I had asked more questions, and had her give me an entire autobiography. I can tell you at one point she was a cowgirl and rode bulls, I can tell you she did hair, nails, and other jobs through her entire life. I can tell you she was born and raised in Texas. And I can tell you she was a Jehovah's Witness, devout as much as she could possibly be, attempting to go out in service even when she was ill, continuing her faith even when her husband threatened her or yelled and fought with her when she attended meeting at the Kingdom Hall....

I can tell you things like that, and they would have little meaning to many, as just another Person in this world, that if you weren't family, it wouldn't hit you. Those details, as important as they are, don't really describe who she was.

Who she was? The most admirable qualities about her?

She cared. She cared about everyone. She raised 6 kids (5 when her son passed) and after that, she raised grandchild after grandchild, and even friends of her children as they would stay around the house. She raised me, my sister, part of my other sister. She raised my cousin, my sisters husband (partly), and many many others.... She saw these people with no where to go, no one to turn to, and no one to call mom, and she reached out to them and raised them, cared for them, gave them a home and love and someone to lean on.

...Someone to lean on. Even if she didn't raise them, she would always welcome them to call her with questions, and concerns. Advice for life, money, help... She never turned anyone down, never told them to tough it on their own, never stopped caring....

Even when her husband abused her. Even when family members stole from her, her jewelry, her heirlooms, her sentimental belongings. Even when they back-stabbed her, betrayed her, never paid her back, and never showed caring. Even when they literally said they hated her and didn't need her help anymore (but always ran back)....

Even after that, she never... would NEVER abandon them. She never held grudges. Never hated anyone. Never turned them out even after all they did to wrong her or stress her out or bring her nothing but grief. She took Jehovah God's and his son Jesus's quality of forgiveness, and she held to it. She was there for family, families friends, and anyone she possibly could be.

She was literally the rock of our family, the foundation that it stood upon. Even when we didn't get along or hated each other. She was always there, always keeping it together, always fighting it...

And speaking of fighting...

She fought for 10 (or 12) long years of Cancer. Waldenstrom Macroglobulinemia, a rare form of Multiple Myeloma that's related to Non-Hodgkin Lymphoma, a cancer she had had and fought and won against earlier in her life. They gave her maybe 6 months to a year to live with WM, and she came back and was still alive and so they said a little more time, and she kept coming back. Eventually they just wondered why she wasn't dead yet.

She fought it, she was determined to live. When the medical things failed her, she denied chemo and she went completely alternative. Keeping herself on a strict diet, strict supplements, all kinds of things she researched, taught herself about, and put into affect to keep herself alive... On top of the cancer she had Congested Heart Failure, Von Von Willebrand Bleeding Disorder, COPD, and Atrial Fib. She was literally a walking contradiction that one wondered how she was still alive. But she kept fighting and taking care of herself for years. And her fight wasn't a sad one at all.

She would travel to places like Africa, and other countries with my aunt. She would go to Texas all the time, and go to meeting, the store, and live her life healthy, and strong as she possibly could. She kept going and fought all the way to the end... Even a few weeks away from death, she laughed when my family said she wasn't going to make it through when they couldn't find anything and said it was just an illness, that they were putting her in the grave too early and she'd get through it....

...And now, even now she'd probably laugh that it took her literally dying for her children (my Aunt) to finally read the bible and accept her faith after years of wanting them to....

This was the person she was.

This was the grandmother that raised me when I had nowhere else to go. The grandmother who may have sheltered me, but kept me from doing drugs, being in jail, or being another statistical teen out there, miserable, pregnant or getting an abortion. This is the grandmother who would sit with me and hold me through anxiety attacks. This is the grandmother who was a fighter. A role model. The stone of my family. And the guardian angel to us all.

This is the grandmother that I truly loved as a mother, and in her last days as she admitted, she saw me as her own daughter.

This is the grandmother that gave and did so much for me... that even if she and I had lived forever, that I could never repay her back.

...This is the the grandmother, mother, and caregiver to me, my family, and everyone who knew her.

...This is only a little bit, as I couldn't possibly describe everything, of who Mary Josephine Richards was.
I see an OC of mine from and old RP as more and more like Steven and Rose Quartz to the point ... I may have to rewrite the characters story.

Basically, I used to RP a roleplay back in 2005 called "Planet of Powers".  In it I had an OC by the name of Kanji Seijutsin. Kanji was .. special amongst his kind as he was of two warring races. The Sages and The Ancients. The Ancients were a powerful race that created their universe. The first race they made being the Sages. One such Ancient was Ukei Furui.

Ukei was weird to begin with. The first two Ancients, Sarah (Serai) and Laura (Laena) found Ukei as a 5 year-old orphan on Earth (as the Ancients were originally humans that discovered magic and created their universe) when they were looking for other kids to join in their journey and cause of creating 'The Ancients'. Ukei was... odd. She could talk to animals and plants, feel what they felt. She was a pacifist like crazily to the point she only drank water. And was just the usual 'mysterious young child that knows more than she should but doesn't remember why' cliche'.

Anyways. Ukei grew up with the other two, created the universe. Enter the creation of the Sages. The Sages got tired of being pushed around and being servants of the 'Ancients. (Sound familiar?) And started a rebellion against The Ancients that lasted thousands of years, called The Soul War. The winners would rule their universe, the losers would be destroyed. The Ancients lost and the Sages rewrote history to make it seem like they were in the right.

Now here's where things are still not worked out. My FIRST idea I had back then was that Ukei being the pacifist she was wouldn't fight the Sages like the others. She helped them instead HEALING (yeah I know), protecting, and helping both sides. To the point when she was captured, she helped a sick sage guard named Kenji Seijutsin. Being grateful and falling in love with her, he helped her escape and they lived after the war in hiding and had Kanji. Ukei was the last Ancient. Later down the line, sages find them, kill Kanji's parents and his story starts. Very Romeo and Juliet-esque.

The OTHER idea that I later changed it to because I wanted it more dramatic and less Romeo and Juliet. Ukei got raped by one of the High Sags in captivity. She still helped save Kenji and he saved her. But Kanji was instead the child of the rape, and Kenji agreed to stand in as the father later as they lived after the war, still in hiding and Kanji's real parentage didn't come out till the end of the RP (or what I later wrote since the RP died).

So Kanji was the son of two races, Sage and Ancient (just like Steven is human and Gem). He had special powers because of being the product of two races that had never had kids together. (Just like Steven). And sort of like Steven (on the Diamonds side) was hated because of being half-Ancient since the Sages hated the Ancients years later. 

Now here's where it really gets odd... LATER when I had to explain Ukei's origins, why she was so unique, special etc. I went god-mode and said  Ukei was the Incarnation of Existence. There being two forces Vacuity (Nothing) and Existence that warred eternally (like yin and yang) until Vacuity got the rise on Existence and to protect itself, Existence incarnated into a form. (Ukei, child of no memory).  Kanji was not born with this part of her though. He did not get the powers of incarnation of Existence until later when he was being sentenced to death and Ukei gave him the last of her life (as she had sealed herself inside his pendant) to make sure he would reincarnate. Thus unknowingly transferring her existential powers to him, and making him even more special.


....So we had Ukei a pacifist who loved life and was secret Incarnation of Existence, a high authority. (Rose Quartz being a pacifist that loved life and was truthfully Pink Diamond.)  Kenji her Sage lover, a race that warred with her race, and became sort of the father t her child. (Greg a human who loved RQ (PD) even though the Gems were against humans originally and the father of her child.) And... Kanji a hybrid of Ancient and Sage with special powers that later is revealed to have higher existential powers and deals with both sides of the previous war down the line years later. (Steven a human and gem hybrid who has to deal with the aftermath of the war and turns out he's a higher authority down the line.)


....So either we were both doing cliches. Or.. I somehow plagiarized something from the future. Lol.

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I kinda want to change Ember Bright into a Hippogriff since she's a Phoenix Pony.... But she was based off of my character Hikaru who's Magic and Flying (Phoenix Sage). So Alicorn  made sense. ... Mmm conflicted.
I intend to have the animatic done before June 16th. If you don't know why June 16th is the deadline, then you haven't paid attention or you don't really know what it's for. If that's the case it's fine. Just means you probably weren't around.
Due to the semester starting, I don't know when my animatic project will actually be done or when I can work on it. So it'll be slowly. This was the last 'panel' I sketched up a week ago as second draft (out of concept) stage. I do want to finish it eventually though. I feel my emotions need it.Maybe by TheRebelPhoenix
Merry Christmas all!
I don't really celebrate (raised JW) but to those who do, have a good one!
Posting this here for everyone that wants to follow Daenerys's journey but doesn't want to see it on DeviantArt. So I don't spam my DA watchers.
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